What’s your opinion????

So I had a friend of mine come up to me and tell me that her boyfriend left his phone open the other day and she happened to look down and see that he had been texting texting an ex and she happened to notice that one of them said I love you too. She confronted him on it and this is what his response was for the text.

So his ex ran and told police that he was abusing her which was not true. She did this bc he had left her and she thought if she could get him locked up she would get to keep the apartment that they were sharing. Anyway the reason for telling u that useless information was bc he told my friend that the only reason he even still speaks to her is bc she of the court case that came from that she’s supposed to go tell the court the truth but she hasn’t done it yet. I told my friend that I can understand him being cordial with her but telling her that he loves her is crossing major lines. Let alone wrong in so many ways. Now that’s only my opinion. Can you give me you’re take on that.

Insanity

Hey everyone its been a long time since we last in BROOKLYN’S WORLD AND so much has happened. Me and the man I’m so I’m love with got back together…Don’t clap for me yet. I waited 10 months. 10 months of have to see him with other hoes and treating them with respect and what I mean when I say that ishe never went and stayed the night at another bitches house when he was with them and he’s done nothing but lie and cheat on me. So after putting my life on hold for him while he decided to go out and fuck everything that wallked. There is no waiting this time I’m gonna move on say fuck this and find someone who is actually really gonna love me and treat me like a queen instead of a doormat

Reading body language.

So today I was thinking about what direction I wanted to go with my blog and I decided that when I listen to someone talk not only am I listening to them talk I listen to their body language their demeanor how they look at somebody how they react to what I say the facial expressions they use you can tell a lot from a person by how they respond the way they respond actions speak louder than words if somebody is sitting next to you and their knees are turned away from you that person is not really into you if your knees are facing each other in the same direction does that person’s into you when a person says they’re leaving their significant other and weeks go by they still haven’t left them but they keep telling you that they’re going to let’s say you need a ride somewhere and they say you know since it’s winter time I ain’t going to let you walk this winter they’re right there should give you a hint or a clue that they have no intentions on leaving the person that they’re with because if they did you wouldn’t have to worry about walking anywhere cuz you guys would be together they can give you a ride wherever you needed to go but clearly that person doesn’t intend on being with you cuz you still going to call them for a ride see what I’m saying it’s not hard to interpret how people are feeling what they’re thinking and you can find all that stuff out just by how they respond to a question or what they say nine times out of 10 the first thing that comes out of a person’s mouth is usually the truth especially in an argument when they say something they’re really mad at you like so and so did this or so and so did that and later on they say no I just said that to make you mad nine times out of 10 you can bet your ass that was the truth they just know it’s really going to hurt you so they tell you that they lied. If your best friend keeps telling you that your boyfriend’s no good and you should leave him you could almost bet your ass your boyfriend’s fucking your friend. No there are some people out there that you know these don’t apply to but they’re very far few and in between. If you ask somebody if you can hang out with them or spend some time with them and they can’t tell you a day when they can spend time with you or even try to make time to spend with you but instead tell you just know that I’m thinking about you really that’s supposed to make me feel better you can’t even tell me you will make time for me but you’re thinking about me what kind of bullshit is that. So not only are you not leaving your significant other but you can’t even tell me you’re going to make time for me but yet you’re thinking about me I don’t give a fuck if you’re thinking about me I’d rather you be with me and hanging out with me and showing me that you like me not just fucking thinking about me what the fuck is that going to do for me how’s that going to help me. Men are so fucked up, I swear they think we’re dumb enough to actually believe some bullshit like that when really they’re the idiots for thinking that we’re dumb enough to believe that bullshit. It’s like no matter how much effort you put in to try to show somebody that you love them and you’ll be there for them they take it for granted they don’t show you any appreciation or attempt to even try to leave the person that they’re with no but instead they drop you off at your house tell you that they love you and they go back home to their girl

LOYALTY….

Question for all of you… If your significant other was in trouble would you lie for them?? MY answer, is yes I will go to any links or measures to make sure my significant other didn’t get into trouble. When it comes to the person I am with, I go hard for them. which means I ride for mine. When it comes to my children or the person that I am with that woman I go hard for them.. let’s just say if we both got arrested ain’t no cop going to get me to roll on my significant other and they definitely ain’t going to get a statement out of me that’s for damn sure. When u love someone you’re supposed to protect them from anything that could hurt them regardless of what it is. To me the definition of loyalty is you having somones back 💯 percent, NO MATTER WHAT!! IF THE BOTH OF YOU GO DOWN TOGETHER, it’s both of you keeping your mouth shut. It’s when the other person is not around and someone hits on you and you say no thanks I’m good. When ur in a big group and someone’s taking shit about your partner and you stop them instead of joining them. It’s doing whatever you can to help the both of you come up not just yourself. It’s when someone gives you something and you make sure you give it to your partner. If everyone just treated everyone else they way that they would want to be treated the world would be a much beytet place

MY COOL ASS NEIGHBOR.

Sitting next door at my neighbors. He’s cool very talented and single. If I wasn’t head over heels in love with somebody else I would jump on this dude like green on a frog. He sings, makes me laugh non-stop when I’m over here. I like coming over here especially when I have had a bad day. I leave here in a better mood. When I say hes talented ladies I mean talented he can fix anything in the house he can make shit, drawl, sing I haven’t found a thing yet he can’t do. And No we have not had sex so I can’t comment on that but I’m sure you get the hint. Anyway we are just friends he’s cool as fuck and I just thought I’d write about it. I appreciate the lengths he goes to make me laugh. I know I get on his nerves alot tho. But anyway shout out to “The Neighbor”!

The Sociopath.!!

So my BFF has this stalker, psychosociopath who I am not kidding calls her every minute of the day when she doesn’t answer the phone he just continues she can’t even make a phone call out because he continues to keep calling and this goes on all day long. I’m on her ass about just ignoring him but it’s getting to the point where he has started threatening me and I ain’t the one. He’s a lazy slob who won’t get off his ass and do a damn thing won’t work won’t leave his grandma’s house nothing and the only thing he has to do is try to ruin her life. He’s put his hands on her he asks her for a favor and in the same breath will call her a cunt I’ve been in a relationship like this and the dude was so abusive that it got to a whole another level of scary I don’t know what it is about myself and other people but I have had my fair share of psycho stalkers and when I say that I’m talking about more than one I’m talking more than five all of which have tried to kill me I’m not for sure what it is that I do to people to make them go crazy but my best friend has the same effect on people too. I’m writing this bc I can see the hurt and how it effects her daily life. Hell it’s starting to effect my daily life. She gets a way from this dude and he does this to her till she has no option but to go back to him but since me and he have reconnected I’m not letting it happen. This dude’s gonna end up killing her. HES DRIVING ME CRAZY SHE PUTS HER PHONE ON VIBRATE AND ALL I CAN HEAR IS IT VIBRATING ALL DAY LONG AND IT DRIVES ME NUTS. HE TRIES TO TEll her that I’m using her or tries to put thoughts in her head that I’m not her friend but I clearly care about her or I wouldn’t be here for her like I am I consider her part of my family I’ve moved her into my home not once not twice but 3 times I care about about her. Buti had stopped talking to her for a year bc all she kept doing was lying to me and stealing from me. When her mom passed away I wasn’t there for her and I regret that every day. But this dude is on some crazy psycho stalker shit and I’m worried about him hurting her. He won’t get the fucking clue that she don’t want him anymore. Oh and to top off everything in my downward spiral of a life my 3rd ex wife has been released from prison and I didn’t want to see her at first but now I think I want to. But we’ll save that for tomorrow or today

I hate it when…..

I hate it when people act like I have a IQ level of 0 or they try to feed me some bullshit ass story. Expecting me to actually believe the b******* that’s coming out of their mouth. I just hate it when people treat me like I’m a lesser than what I actually am because I’m a badass mother f***** first off let me name it off I cook I clean I have a job if I want something I make my own money and get it myself I can do just about anything that a man can do if not better. I’m honest, loyal, dependable, I don’t cheat and I keep everything 100, and the person I’m with I have their back 100%. I don’t trash talk them nor do anything fucked up. I ride hard for the people I’m with. I’m a fucking catch, and I keep falling for the people that fuck me over the most. Why can’t there be a guy/girl out there that can be the same way I am. It just sucks

Would they have missed me.

First off I want to start off by thanking my daughter KAYDENCE GRIFFIN for saving my life after my dumbass attempted to try and end it I know she probably thinks I’m upset with her but I’m not she was doing what she thought was right and if it wouldn’t have been for her there’s a great possibility that I wouldn’t even be writing this right now. I attempted suicide the other day took a bunch of pills. My daughter got word of it told me she wanted my address so she could come and see me and the next thing I know there is an ambulance standing at the door along with the police and after I told them what I’ve done and they took my blood pressure and my vitals they immediately put me in the ambulance and took me to the hospital and due to my past drug abuse. (I used to be an IV drug user but I’ve been cleaning out the needle for 2 years) they had a very difficult time getting an IV started I told him they were going to have to go through my neck but they didn’t believe me so after being poked and prodded for 20 minutes I finally told them to please go through my neck or not to give me an IV. So finally they went through my neck which now I have a huge bruise. My 2nd ex wife was supposed to have followed the ambulance to the hospital but when I got there and realized she still hadn’t been there I called to find out where she was at she said she ran out of gas then when I send some people to help her to give her gas she didn’t decide that she don’t want it and she had already gotten a hold of her brothers supposedly and they were going to bring her gas well while I was in the hospital somebody stole $250 Of my money and the only two people that could have done it was my best friend or my ex-wife and what irritates the piss out of me the most is the fact that I was going through a traumatic event and they use that as a reason to steal from me. They thought for one that I was going to jail afterwards so they didn’t think I’d be coming back to the house so when I get back I started going through my stuff and can’t find my money I start asking questions nobody wants to be honest with me about it each one wants to blame the other so I felt like the only thing that would be fair was for both of them to split the difference split the cost until one of them comes clean and tells me they took it which I highly doubt will ever happen. I really don’t know who to believe or who to trust because both of them have done me dirty in the past my supposed best friend has done me really dirty and my second ex-wife who is still really good friends with me has also done me pretty f***** up in the past so neither one of them are in good standing with me when it comes to being able to tell me something and I believe them. It really hurts me that I’m going through a really tough time right now and they use that to take advantage of me and steal from me. Everybody keeps trying to say that it’s my best friend but my gut tells me otherwise it’s just the way the events played out and how my ex-wife acted when she told me she ran out of gas well I send people to go give her gas money or gas and she didn’t want it it’s just here lately a lot of her stories just don’t add up and she uses me for one thing in particular and if she was my friend truly my friend she would offered you know help me out a little bit or pitch in a little bit or throw me some money cuz she doesn’t broke or just anything like that if she never does as a matter of fact I have to check her sometimes and let her know just how greedy she’s being and then and only then does something change a little bit but not much. I think what hurts me the most though is being at the hospital and the two people that were supposed to be there by my side either one of them showed up which tells me that neither one of them really gave a f*** cared or thought that I was important enough to be there for and that’s where I got my title for my blog today because I wonder if I would have actually died would it even matter to them specifically more one person than the other my ex-wife is still a really good friend of mine but for my ex who as you guys know I’m still head over heels in love with would it even make a difference to him would it hurt him would he be hurt by it but he even cry what do you miss me what he even show up to my funeral my gut tells me the answer to those questions are all no and that’s what hurts I feel like everyday I’m being played for a fool I feel like I’m being used and I feel like that everything that is said to me is a lie he tells me all the time you know I love you right and my answer is the same every single time no I don’t because actions speak louder than words and your actions don’t match your words I just want to find somebody who I can be with that their actions match their words that’s all I want and I’m 39 years old and I’ve yet to find that with that being said I think I’m done venting for the night

Wtf is wrong with people today

So I’m not gonna lie i smoke alot of pot and today I had gotten a new toy so I thought I’d be nice and got over next door and see if he wanted to partake. Oh and fyi ive been digging this dude, keep that on mind. So me and my bff strut our stuff over there knock on the door and he Screams really loud oh my gooood who is it now. He flings the door open and says in a rude tone NO, not tonight. First off it ass should feel privileged I always bring something to smoke I don’t ask you for shit, I bring my own party favors and I don’t do dumb s*** and for you to act like you’re better than me and if you don’t think that we can hear everything you say through the walls of the trailer when you’re screaming you’re absolutely wrong and you should feel lucky that I was desperate enough to get out of my house excuse me let me face that the people’s house I’m staying at I was so desperately wanting to get out of there that I was like you know what f*** it even though I heard him be a complete utter f****** a****** the other night I’m asking if he wants to smoke and you act like it’s a problem for me to come over and hang out when in reality the only reason I came over there is cuz I was so desperate to get the f*** out of where I was at that you were my only option I didn’t even want to come over especially after hearing all the s*** that he had to say the other night. I’m so sick and tired of buddies rudeness and lies and disrespect and b******* like that wasn’t even called for he was a complete f****** a****** for no reason no there was a reason he thinks he’s better than everybody else why is every guy gotta try and start fights between friends just so they can try to Fuck both of them. Men are down right pigs most of the time. So I went out tonight in tonight and what I thought was supposed to be spending time with a person it turns out I’m just a booty call. WTF. ONCE AGAIN I FELL FOR HIS SHIT. WHY. Do i continue to be so stupid. I hate the fact I love him bc no matter how pissed I am at home or how bad he’s treated me soon as he calls I pick up or if he texts me asking to stop by it’s always yes. I stood by his self de the entire time he was locked up and tonight he told me he don’t want to deal with me being locked up. That hurt so bad. Made me feel like I’m not worth that too him. He’s never going to leave her. And as I sat there listening to him talk i realized that he loves her the way I love him so he’s not going to leave her. I hate to see him hurt and I really don’t want to Fuck this hoe up but if she’s gonna Fuck with his emotions I’m gonna have to set her straight. Man it really hurts me to him go through this s*** when he doesn’t have to like he don’t deserve this he can be a really good dude and he deserves to be with somebody who’s actually going to love him and be there for him and not be talking to other m************ it’s just b*******

Let’s take a vote

Would you rather be with somebody who you knew loved you and would do their best by you or would you rather be with somebody that you had a question your whole life?? My answer I rather be with somebody that I know love me somebody that I know I can count on when she gets tough if I go away for prison for 5 years they’re going to support me while I’m in there they’re going to have my back they ain’t going to let nobody talk s*** about me then going to let nobody do me wrong that’s all I want in life and I love somebody like that but the f***** up thing is they don’t love me like that and it’s hard to swallow because I do I would have their back I would take a bullet for him would take a case hell there’s some things that probably do that I’m going to mention in writing and this person knows I love them that much but that doesn’t matter to them because they’d rather be with this chick who lies about everything the b**** lies about the color of her shoes for no reason. And for real this dude deserves so much better than her like I’m not trying to boast or brag but he deserve someone like me someone who is going to have his back no matter what someone that when I’m out somewhere and he ain’t with me and the mother f***** talks bad about him I step up and say hey either you shut the f****** or me and you going to have a problem like I have that dudes back 100% I may have done a couple things while he was locked up in prison that I’m not proud of but come on it was something that didn’t mean anything the second he got out of prison I was all his I did a couple things while he was out of prison when he first got out but it wasn’t because I was actually doing it or thinking that way I did it because he said he made a comment about his ex-wife that really got me in my feelers and I knew he had been going through my phone so I emailed somebody in prison and said some s*** that I knew at some point would get back to the dude I was dating was it one of my proudest moments no. But I tell him everything I’m 100% honest with him whether he believes me or not that’s his problem. he doesn’t have to cheat on me hell I’ve been married to three different times all the women if he wants to f*** somebody else all you have to do is bring him home if he wants to f*** somebody by himself all he’s got to do is just let me know keep it 100 and just because he’s out doing that s*** doesn’t mean I want to do that s*** I’m a faithful loyal b**** when I’m with somebody I am with that person nobody else means a f*** to me but they go behind my back and do some of that should be done has like really crushed me and the other night I’m hanging out with a certain somebody and the whole entire time all he’s talking about is a b**** that he’s with it’s like for real like I get you a nice ass hotel room for the jacuzzi tub so you can chill and relax for a while you totally blow me the f*** off and you’re going to sit here and talk to me about nothing but her I cried myself to sleep I just don’t get what I’m not doing right you know how you pour your heart out to somebody and nine times out of 10 when you’re in love with them you know they pour their heart back he would always just say thank you or I appreciate that and my gut just tells me that he does not love me at all like I love him and that s*** hurts especially when you would ride for that mother f***** no it fans or butts I wouldn’t even ask questions if he said hey let’s go, I’d be like alright. I know at one point in time my third wife was that way like we could fight argue and at the end of the day I knew that she loved me granted she also tried to kill me several times so I don’t know how much love was there but I just want to be with somebody that is going to have my back like I have theirs and know that when I’m not around they ain’t got to worry about me cheating on him or f****** around or doing dumb s*** but it seems like no matter who I date or who I go out with they always be on some dumb s*** they just can’t keep their dick in their pants and think it’s cute to just have sex with all these pre females. I’m tired of putting my all into trying to help people and be there for people when they won’t even put in a fourth of the effort that I do well I’m going to jump off here now I just wish this person knew just how much I love them and how deep my feelings ran maybe then they would treat me with a little bit more respect and decency. Because I go all out for them just to be s*** on and talk too crazy and just wish they knew how much I love them or at least wish they would love me the same but no I fall into the category of being not as good as the other b**** who lies about everything couldn’t tell the truth to save her life I just don’t get it but I will hope everyone has a wonderful evening don’t forget to share with your friends and I should be posting my edibles soon for sale